Comedian Dawn French speaks about how she has processed long-term grief following her father’s suicide. In interviews, she says her father died by suicide when she was 19 and that, in the aftermath, she experienced strong emotions including anger, confusion and grief. French describes how she carried a sense of “blame,” including feeling that she herself was responsible or had failed to foresee what would happen. She also discusses the lasting “shame and taboo” she believes can surround mental health struggles and her efforts to move away from that silence. The accounts emphasize that her reflections focus on how she dealt with decades of difficult feelings rather than on new allegations or additional details about the death. Taken together, the reports portray French as being candid about the role that self-blame and societal stigma can play after suicide, and about the emotional work involved in coming to terms with what happened.