Nikita Hand speaks publicly for the first time in connection with her civil sexual assault case victory involving MMA fighter Conor McGregor, telling reporters that she still experiences panic attacks and PTSD but has found relief from shame and guilt. She discusses how survival becomes more important than fighting back as she continues to recover.

Hand’s comments come as she publishes a memoir and reflects on the broader emotional impact of public life after the case. The outlets describe her reacting to the continued visibility of McGregor, saying that seeing him given a prominent platform is “devastating.” At the same time, she outlines progress in her personal life, including peace she has found with her partner and the prospect of a growing family, framing her experience as both ongoing and shaped by long-term recovery.