Game of Thrones actress Gemma Whelan says her mother, Sue, died after drowning while the family was abroad on holiday. In posts marking the one-year anniversary of her death, Whelan describes the event as a “catastrophic shock” and says she is still struggling to come to terms with the sudden loss. She writes about the emotional aftermath, including profound solitude and loneliness, and reflects on how grief can feel isolating because many people do not experience the same kind of sudden tragedy.

Whelan also shares that the past year has been “b***dy awful,” while adding that she still experiences moments of happiness and fulfillment, including when spending time with her two children. She says she continues to think of her mother—such as trying to call her or taking photos—before remembering she is gone.

In her tribute, Whelan includes details about memorial plans connected to Canada and the Lake District. Fellow actors reportedly sent condolences, underscoring the public response to her revelation.