Game of Thrones actor Gemma Whelan marks the one-year anniversary of her mother’s death, saying her mum died after drowning while the family was abroad. In an Instagram post, Whelan writes that the death came as a “catastrophic shock” and describes the profound loneliness and solitude that can follow a sudden, tragic loss. She says she has struggled to come to terms with the death and that the past year has been “b***dy awful,” while also noting that grief does not prevent her from being happy and fulfilled at times. Whelan, who plays Yara Greyjoy in the HBO series, pays tribute to her mother, Sue, and reflects on moments when she still reaches for memories—such as trying to call her or taking pictures for her—before remembering she is gone. She also shares that part of her mother’s remains was scattered in Canada, and that the rest is planned to be scattered in a river in the Lake District with her father, following local rules. Fellow actresses Suranne Jones and Sophie Rundle send condolences in coverage of the tribute.